God Ways - Gene's Testimony
In 1984 - I Was Lost...
The events leading up to August 4th that year were horrible, in fact. I’d been searching – since very young – to find where Love lived, and I’d been unsuccessful all the way to and through August 3rd. I had a Lovely wife, a soon-to-be-10-year-old son and a soon-to-be-7-year-old daughter, and I was numbed by a desolate world-space where Love was not to be found: I was lost…and I knew it.
I’d been raised in a Christian home with my parents and four sisters – yes 4 – and I was all boy! The stories I could tell… But now I was a man, and as lost as a meandering goose without a flightpath home. Steeped in deep depression, I found myself at suicide’s door, so deeply buried in it, there was no way out.
On August 3rd, my wife and children were away on a trip to visit in-laws, and I thought I might not see them ever again. That evening I cried out at God LOUDLY: “God! If You’re there and if You can hear me, I’m tired of seeking You! If You even exist! If You even care!! If you even…Love…me…” I was crying and dying and screaming and believing there would be no answer… I dropped to the floor into a big pile of nothing – loaded gun within reach – and I cried and sobbed myself to a fitful and worried and tortured kind of unrest until morning first light August 4th.</p
The bright morning sunlight was filtering gently through the partially closed window shade of the bedroom of our Texas country Historic home, and I felt an odd warmth at the top of my head – not at all like a fever. As I lay there, I was unable to move and my first thought was that I had suffered a stroke or that I, in fact, had actually died and this was simply the process one goes through – you know – with dying. But it seemed unlikely I would be unable to move if I was a spirit now…so things weren’t exactly adding up.
Immediately the warmth began to slowly move down to the tops of my ears and eyebrows, then down into my nose and mouth, back of my head, chin, neck all-way ’round, down to my shoulders, into my upper chest and upper arms, down to – and then REALITY HIT ME like a ton of bricks!!!: I was in PERFECT PEACE! No more confusion, just clarity of thought. My eyes were no longer clouded by gloom and darkness, and still the Warmth of Divine Presence continued to move throughout my body…to completely fill me up on the inside with a fluid-like, complete,
complex yet so simple Love so deep it cannot be expressed in words, and made known to me the Essence of Life and Love and I knew I’d met The Living God; rather: The Living God had Met me. Tears began to flow – gush – down my face uncontrollably: This time tears of great Joy and Love and Peace because my lifelong search for Love had ended and the Living God Who IS Love had entered and I now was made whole, without me doing a single thing besides giving up on me and receiving Godself into myself!
For the next 21 consecutive days – August 4th to August 24th – God taught me the entire Bible, Genesis to Revelations, verse to connected verse to connected verse, back and forth, back and forth, like a weaver at Her Loom, Creating The Tapestry from Creation to the ending of this Generation of the earth and heavens and even everything in between. This 21-day “teaching course” was so voluminous and so comprehensive that I had to many times ask God for rest because my mind was filling and refilling too rapidly for me to take it all in.
And this happened all day long and most all nights over those 21 days! I could talk with you – well forever – and still not spill it all out: By Design, this was a Crash Course, to be absolutely sure! Many times since 1984, Godself has Delivered into my spirit things that certainly I never knew before nor had ever thought about and then BOOM – right out of the blue – there it was: An immutable Truth in plain sight, had always been there/will always be, now shown in the super-bright Light of Eternity – for all to see and know.
I’ve taught, since 1984, what you’ll find on this website to individuals, to groups, on and off the Internet, in chat rooms, at weddings, on country roads, in towns and cities large and small, and I put it out there for anyone who had ears to hear and eyes to see, and I’m still doing it, this now over three and a half decades later. Do you Love your family, friends and neighbors enough to tell them about God’s Great Love for them each and every one,